With this awful weather, it has brought germies into my home. Has left both of my darling children ill for a few weeks now. Now all three of us have a cough that keeps us up at night and my youngest gasping for breath during the day. Still with a snotty faced smile, her favorite thing to say is “Happy”. She will catch me in a negative moment and say “Happy” to me. Sometimes it is even “Happy happy happy” as if to say “Get off your rump Momma and do something special. Grace asked me today what was wrong. I replied “Nothing darlin” and she persisted…then what is wrong with your eyebrows? Even how we are feeling on the inside, not matter how hard we try to shield our children, can show. I raised them up to her and was truthful. I told her I was feeling overwhelmed and just needed some space. She quietly retreated to her toyroom just like that! Children are powerful messengers!
Today at my yoga class I pulled the “flow” card. This type of message seems to come to me frequently. I have to fight the urge to try and create my path. I have been applying like crazy to jobs as I am nearing the end of my maternity leave and I am left feeling an extreme sense of urgency. I have been given money to advertise my own business, and I will do that. It is the interim that concerns me. The number “one year” comes to me every time I soul search on this question. I have been doing so many readings and asking my guides and the universe for some guidance and I continue to get the same messages…to let things go out to the universe and let it happen. So I guess that is what I am doing with applications…setting them free until they land in the hands of the right person. While I feel urgency, at the same time I feel peace and trust. This will happen in divine time!
Speaking of divine time…every time I would try to watch the Oprah webcast, something was in place that was keeping me from doing so. I really struggled through the first chapter and after last week’s webcast not working I felt it was time for me to wash my hands and realize it wasn’t for me. I had lost interest. This week, my husband was working and really wanted a reflection evening to myself so I decided to give it another try. 2 mins before the webcast, Grace woke up screaming and then baby Amelia did. I took my deep breath and realized this was another sign for me. However once Grace was downstairs with me, only 5mins had passed and I decided I would tune in. Amelia cried for a few more mins and then it faded. My little Grace laid with her head on my knee, not saying a word (hard for her!) and just listened…and then fell into the most peaceful sleep. I watched the majority of the webcast in awe with her on my lap. I carried her to bed and returned to a cup of tea and a blanket. Only one light in my whole house on. I felt so at peace. The webcast made sense finally. I was only meant to get those messages as they came to me. Grace was a messenger…she delivered me to my guides. Now I can’t wait to give the book a second chance and continue my journey.
When I met my yoga instructor I had what I now know, was an opening of my third eye. I was so drawn to her and knew that her wonderful wellness centre was a place for me. We have decided to pilot a project to try and record a class for people to take home. We have no plans other than the recording, and this is okay. It will come together in divine timing. I am thrilled to partner with her on this venture!
When I put my kids to bed now, I whisper in their ear…”Peace, peace, peace, love, love love” and that is the last thing I leave in their sweet ears….so I leave you with that as well….peace peace peace….love love love!
